Waking up the morning after was no walk in the park. My booty hoe was not only in pain but I had missed a few calls and text messages from Lisa wondering why I didn't go back to the condo after car dealership guy to give my payout to Rain. At first, Lisa seemed pretty pissed off with me, however, she said 'dealership guy' had a great time and wanted to see me again. I went dead silent. 

Kendra...Kendra, are you there? Lisa said into the phone.
Ya.. ya I'm here, I said uneasily. 
Okay good! When can I book you to see Car Dealership guy again? Lisa asked excitedly. 

It was like a spaced out for a moment with ringing in my ears and everything around me becoming blurry. I knew I had to say something but what if Lisa didn't believe me? What if she would fire me for making such accusation and blackball me from the industry? Or worse.. 

Sex workers often do not report rape because they fear arrest, social stigma, police discrimination, and losing their livelihood. The illegal or unregulated status of sex work in many places makes victims afraid that speaking out will result in criminal charges for themselves rather than justice. Many sex workers have a history of bad experiences or abuse from law enforcement. Leading them to not trust the police to help them. 

Law enforcement don't bring a sense of safety they evoke the sense of fear. 

So I guess it was a risk I was willing to take if it meant preventing it from happening to other girls and to blacklist 'Dealership guy. At least that's what I'd hope would happen. Don't you think? 

Lisa... I have to tell you something... I said nervously. 
Whats up! She responded sternly. 
It's about 'Dealership guy... I can't see him again... I said while choking back tears. 

Without having to relive that whole conversation again, essentially Lisa was "understanding" at the time and said she would never send girls to Car Dealership guy again along with a review on Terb. She also said it was cool with me taking some time off.

After that conversation I realized I should make an appointment at the sex clinic to get tested for STDs. Thank god I did because Car Dealership guy gave me fucking Chlamydia! Which didn't help the internal spiral happening inside me. I had to take four large horse pills that made me feel extremely nauseous but would clear it up in one to two weeks. I had never been so humiliated and dehumanized in my life until I met him. 

I felt like I needed to disappear for a while and escape from my own body so that's what I did.