It was a cold winter day, a week before Christmas break. I had skipped class for the first time to meet up with my then boyfriend, Cody. I would of had second period, however, Cody’s parents wouldn’t be home so he thought it would be perfect for us. 

We had only been dating for two weeks and before that, Cody had another girlfriend, Billy. Before that, he had been with two other girls. Cody was only two years older than me, in his Senior year, with the sexual appetite like Mr.Grey. Cody was taller than me, athletic build with washboard abs, and dark blonde hair with a military haircut. He had the lightest blue eyes that you could get lost in. Stare into his eyes for too long and you may just lose yourself in them. 

The night before, I had shaved my vagina for the first time because three weeks prior , Cody had told me I was hairy and needed to do something about it. Cadets had finished for the evening and Cody had asked me if I wanted a ride home. Then he was with Billy. But I couldn’t resist. Before dropping me off, Cody had parked his car a few blocks from my place. I had only kissed one other person in like the 8th grade so I didn’t really know what was going on. Cody unbuckled his seat belt then reached over to unbuckle mine. My first thought was, why does he have no scent? Usually guys smell good or wear some form of perfume. Their own scent girls can’t get over and want to steal your sweater because it smells like them; kind of scent. However, Cody was allergic to perfumes and many other things, so I don’t think I’d be stealing any of his sweaters anytime soon. 

Just as Cody took my seat belt off, he intensely kissed me. I was stunned and before I could say anything, he was kissing me again. I felt my vagina get warm and tingle as I leaned into him more, kissing him back. He caressed the side of my face to my breasts. I could feel myself getting turned on and my panties wet. I had never experienced that feeling before and it felt good. As Cody’s hand worked its way from my breasts to my belt, I stopped him and said, “Wait! What about Billy? Isn’t she your girlfriend?” He responded back, “Yes, but I’m leaving her, I want you.” As he began to unbuckle my belt and kiss my neck, I couldn’t resist though I knew it was wrong. His lips went from kissing my neck making their way back to my lips. Kissing me intensely as his fingers slid under my panties. Touching me, sliding his fingers back and forth on my wet clit. When his lips left mine, I had let out multiple moans telling him not to stop. “Keep going, Oh Oh OoooH, I think I’m going to cum”, I moaned. He whispers in my ear, “Cum for me, cum on my fingers”, and so I did. As I grasped onto his shoulders, thrusting my hips more onto his fingers, the sensation was intense, I could see stars in my eyes and then I had my first orgasm. 

Panting, I rested my head on his shoulder as he took his hand out of my panties and I began to buckle up my pants. I sat back into the passenger seat all flushed, trying to process the orgasm I just had and then I remembered that he still had a girlfriend. Cody looked over at me and asked, “So how did that feel?” I blurted out, “Amazing!”, with a huge smile and blushed cheeks. 

Before I could even ask the question, “So what is this?” Cody stated that he had a suggestion for me, if I could shave before we had sex. I blurted out, “What about Billy?” He responded, “I’m going to break up with her at school tomorrow.” Was that supposed to make me feel good? That he was choosing me? Cause if so, I felt the complete opposite. I felt sick to my stomach, I had become The Other Woman before I even lost my virginity. But he was so good looking, he wanted me, and that orgasm… 

Driving the few blocks to my house was pretty quiet, Cody pulled over a few houses down so my parents didn’t see me getting out of a boys car. Before I got out, Cody leaned over, kissed me on the cheek and said he’d come see me after school the next day. 

The next day, Cody called me after fourth period to tell me he was not far from my school and wanted to come pick me up so we could talk. I could feel my stomach sink and my mind race. What did he want to talk about? Did he break up with Billy? Did he change his mind or did he tell her that he cheated on her with me? So many thoughts were running through my mind while I waited for Cody to pick me up. As Cody drove up to the front of my school, my heart began to race, I could feel myself sweating but I also felt a little turned on. Thinking about the night before was making me flushed in the chest. I had to tell myself to take deep breaths before I got into the car. As I got into the car, before I could put my seatbelt on, Cody gently grabbed both sides of my face and kissed me like they do in the movies. I could feel that warm tingle again. For a moment, I forgot about everything. 

As Cody pulls away he says, “I broke up with Billy today”, “oh, are you okay?” I responded back. “Ya, it wasn’t working out anyways, besides I want to be with you”, he said. I had that stunned look on my face again. Why am I so awkward? I kept thinking. Cody giggled at my facial expression, started driving and said he was going to take us somewhere private. Cody pulled into an empty parking lot behind the YMCA, unbuckled his seatbelt and told me to get into the back seat with him. Staring into his eyes, wondering why he wanted me, Cody stared back into mine and asked me if I wanted to be his girlfriend. “Yes, yes I will be your girlfriend,” I gleefully said. Cody had a grin from ear to ear, moving closer to me he placed his hand softly behind my neck while gripping some of my hair. He looked deep into my eyes then kissed me passionately.  We began to makeout intensely, caressing each other’s bodies. Cody’s hands began caressing my breasts, working his hands down to my hips where he picked me up to straddle him. I could instantly feel his hard boner as I thrusted my hips into him, kissing him deeply. It was so hot my panties were soaked. As Cody started to kiss my neck, he lightly bit my ear and gave me this tingling sensation and shivers all over my body. He could feel I was turned on, his hands on my hips thrusting me into his boner more while gently moving his lips from my neck down my collar bone to my breasts. OMG. It felt so good. Too good. As Cody started to unbutton my blouse, moving my bra over to lightly suck my nipples. I had let out a moan, thrusting into him deeper while running my fingers through his hair. 

Then it hit me! “Wait!! Stop!! I’m a virgin!!” I yelled. I pulled away as I began to blush and feared I had ruined the mood. Cody smiled while giggling, saying he knew I was a virgin. How?! My unshaved vagina gave it away. He seemed to be more turned on by the thought of me never having sex before; his hands were running all over my body while thrusting into me. We continued to make out as I dry humped his hard boner. We weren’t even having sex and the windows were all fogged up as if we were. It was so steamy, reminiscing about it turns me on. 

The rush of young love, the intensity you feel towards one another, exploring each other’s bodies for the first time, and finding secret places to explore each other sexually without the interruption of parents. Ya… It was fucking hot, like Fifty Shades of Grey hot with more nudity. 

However, we didn’t have sex that night. I told Cody I wanted to wait and so he did…. For two weeks. Which brings you back to where we started. The day I lost my virginity. I’ll be honest, I wasn’t ready for my first time. I wanted to wait till I was at least in love or married. I wore a purity ring for christ sakes! But that was not how Cody rolled.. He didn’t want to wait any longer, insinuating that he would leave and that he doesn’t not not have sex in a relationship. I remember feeling worried that he would break up with me. My first relationship ever and I get dumped two weeks later? Every girl’s worst nightmare. 

Cody had picked me up at school after first period to drive me over to his place, which was out of town. I had never been more nervous in my life. I didn’t know what to expect, except for what I’ve seen in movies or porn. I was pretty quiet for most of the drive. I was wearing my winter boots and jacket over my white lace dress. With a white bra and panties to match. I had decided to curl my hair and wear red lipstick. I thought white was fitting for the occasion… 😉 

As we pulled up to his big country house, with a swimming pool, hot tub and fifty acres of land; my heart began to race. Once Cody parked the car, he got out first and came over to open my door for me. He takes my hand to guide me, at first I thought we were going into the house, but instead we were headed to the garage. Cody opens the door, we walk in and there’s a mattress on the floor, a sex playlist on the stereo, candles lit and lube on the bed. It wasn’t my first wish to have sex for my first time in a garage but it’s not like I was going to tell him and hurt his feelings. He said it was so we could have more privacy in case I’m loud or his parents come home early. So I went along with it. 

Cody takes my coat off and walks me over to the mattress on the floor and tells me to just relax. I stayed quiet thinking he must know what he’s doing considering he’s been with three other girls before me. As he begins to kiss my neck from behind and unzipping my dress I couldn’t help but think about the other girls he has probably done this for. I thought my first time would be special and I’d feel special. With my dress falling to the floor, I could feel Cody’s hands running all over my body while taking my bra off. He begins to french kiss me while running his hand down my panties and began to rub my clit. I moaned. His kisses made their way to my breasts, lightly licking and sucking my nipples. God I love my nipples and breasts being played with, something I didn’t know until that moment. 

I started taking Cody’s belt off, unbuckling his pants, letting them drop to the floor. He stopped rubbing my clit for a moment to take his shirt off. Ugh he was so hot, the abs and bubble butt ass. He took my hand and grabbed his cock between his boxers then whispered in my ear, “My cock is so hard, I want you.” I had never seen a penis before nor had I touched one, but it sure turned me on. As I lay on my back, Cody gets on top of me to kiss me, then my neck to my breasts. I lightly moan as he continues to kiss down my body to my panties, he could even wait to take them off and he started licking my pussy right through my underwear. I moaned again and again until he ripped my panties off, spread my legs and started to lick my pussy more. I started to moan louder. It felt so good, I never thought I’d love a guy going down on me. He had spread my vagina lips apart to suck my clit even deeper and my screams of ecstasy got louder. Throwing my legs over his shoulder, my hands running through his hair, thrusting my pussy more into his face, he looks up at me with those big blue eyes, paused and said, “cum for me baby, cum all over my face,” as he continues to lick my wet pussy, I orgasmed in his mouth. When he came up for air, he french kissed me while saying my pussy tastes so good and that he loved that I took his advice; my vagina was hairless. Again, it wasn’t the most romantic setting, but at least he was trying, right? 

Cody took off his boxers, kissed me again and asked if I was ready; “uh huh,” I responded. He proceeded to put on a ONE branded condom and he begins to have sex with me, I cry out not in ectsy but pain. He whispers, “That’s your cherry popping.” I could feel tears running down the sides of my face as he kept going, letting out a loud moan as came inside the condom. That’s it? That’s what sex is? That fucking hurt, I thought to myself. Cody hands me a towel and directs me to the shower. I get into the shower to notice blood everywhere. I started to cry silently in the shower not sure if that was normal or not. Or if he noticed the blood too, I hoped not. 

Once I got out of the shower and got dressed, Cody said he would drive me back to school. The ride was once again quiet and it felt like the molding of his penis was inside my vagina. As I stared out the window, I felt different. Like I lost something. But I also felt sexy, like I was finally a woman in a way.